Just a Word

I didn’t intend to mention this at all, but it’s going on a bit longer than I anticipated and I figured I owed an explanation. I first want to apologize to everyone for not visiting your blogs or commenting, nor even answering many of the comment left here.

The reason, is simply that I’m fighting off a more severe than usual depression. The truth of the matter is, we just got our water again. We have had cold water for a few days, but the Contrarian was finally able to jerry rig around the split pipe and get the water actually going through the pipes again. Before, we had a hose up the stairs and heated water for dishes and like.

You can imagine the misery of it all. We were grungy, and it is a lot of extra work. Besides, it’s still quite cold out, today being the first day about freezing since late December.

Added to that, we are snowed in, and the Bronco is stuck at the top of the hill. The Contrarian tried again today to unstick it, but no luck.

Added to that, I’ve been having some digestive issues again, and my back problems have also flared up. So all in all, I’ve felt pretty lousy.

All have contributed to a rather black mood. I find it hard to drag myself around to do housework, or even much else. I manage to cook a reasonable meal each day, and that’s about it.

Things are starting to look up. With water again, we have done a couple of loads of laundry, showered and washed hair, changed the bedding, and well, all contribute to feeling a bit better.

I am not complaining or looking for sympathy here. Depression is a fact of life, and one learns coping mechanisms. In better days, I force myself to engage and that clears up the problem quickly. When things are difficult, I don’t do what I know I should.

Little by little, my interest will return. As it does, I’ll get back to normalcy. I may even get to Church this Sunday, who knows. Better weather is coming after about 5 more days, so they say. That will definitely help.

I know many of you also suffer from depression. Mine is reasonably mild, usually resulting in people just thinking I am cranky. It is a fact that that misunderstanding makes it harder sometimes to get well. It’s hard when people get mad and disgusted with you, for something you cannot help much. But as I said, things are improving I believe.

I hope to get back to surfing around and visiting all of you soon. I’d appreciate your prayers, and know that I am thinking of many of you often. I seem unable to do much right now except play endless games of mah jong. A stupid past time, but I keeps me from dwelling on things I cannot fix or must endure at this time.

Hope everyone is well and getting on with the winter!